wpid-wp-1446688736269.jpgI am probably a wicked man, but if that had ever at all bothered me, I probably would have stopped killing. Killing is my release, my sanctuary. In those brief moments, I feel free because I know that killing is the lesser of two evils, and I have put to rest a monster more vicious than myself. Because in those moments, I am made immortal and will live on forever through the lives of the people I’ve saved and the generations who will follow them.

And they will never know that I watch from the shadows. They will never see me or know me. They will think like everyone else, that I’m a monster, a madman with a special kind of twisted soul, and that is how I will leave, in obscure darkness. The same darkness I emerged from. The same darkness where I have lived my entire life. It’s where I belong.

Everyone has their own perspective of evil, and I suppose I will be the only one who ever views myself as some form of hero. They see the pain that I cause, but not the pain that I feel. They will remember my actions not my motives. They will always know my name, but they will never know me. They will never consider how much I hate myself.

I know monsters exist and that people have to believe in them. I am the monster, the hated, the sinner without hope. I am because someone has to be. Someone has to live in the darkness to protect the light. Someone has to be the villain.

That someone is me.

Writer. College student. Focused. Blessed. Adventurer. Musician. Professional over thinker. I'm pretty busy with college, but sometimes I write. It clears my head and reminds me of the impact I want to have on the world, which is why I'll never stop.

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s

%d bloggers like this: